fkldj

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 02:40:36 GMT

I feel sick.

Bleh

Shit

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 04:56:22 GMT

I want to make a myspace again.

The only keeping me from doing it is worrying about people thinking I'm weak for making one again when I said I wouldn't.

Isn't that exactly what I was trying to avoid?

Shit

Bleh!

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 16:37:50 GMT

Although everything else is crazy, I'm actually doing really good right now. Things are turning in my favor faster than I thought they would be.

Yes!

Oh great

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 14:42:38 GMT

Last night I had a dream about what could have been. You know, when, in your dream, things turned out the way you intended, instead of blowing up in your face. For me, it was a very odd experience, because after I woke up from my dream I realized that the reality in my dream was not what I really wanted, but just a way for me to fit in.

Anyway, this morning has been going pretty well, despite the fact that my mother freaked out about the angle I put a top back onto a basket. I decided to remain calm and just agree with her. It turned out that doing that actually got the argument over fairly quickly and didn't put me in a bad mood. Being calm and nice has really worked out for me latley. I have met a few new people and none of them hate me. It seems like the 'duh' answer to a situation like mine, and it is, but somtimes it takes a little searching elsewhere and exploration of other options before coming back to the simple solution.

School is going ok for what its worth. I don't have that many friends, here at Helix, but they come with time and I havent got time on my side yet. Last year, at grossmont I was much more comfy with the people around me and I had many a people to fall back on and now that is gone. However, I won't waste my time looking back.

My sister and I have been talking and bonding much more, ever since she got her car and license. I have to admit that I do take out most, if not all, of my frusturations out when I am in the car with her. Hearing "fucking bitch! She cut me off!" is not a rare thing anymore. But I have to watch myself, because I still drive with my mother sometimes and she doesnt exactly take well to cursing in her car.

So, I have decided to finally write down what happened 3029430 weekends ago now that I have the time.

Saturday, Darlene and I went over to grossmont and hung out awhile. We ate McDonalds and saw 'Red Eye', which I have to admit was really fun. I like hanging out with Darlene, I always laugh and I don't feel like I have to proove anything to her. We just have fun and that is really what matters. On the way to Grossmont, I took the trolley and met a funny black woman who was about 17 years old. She already had a baby! We got into talking about schools and stuff like that. It was a pretty fun experience, you know, meeting new people.

The day before (friday) I went to the Grossmont football game, where I saw a bunch of my old pals. I hung out with Darlene though the game. We mostly spent the time talking to Ricky or getting red vines from the food stand. It was a blast. I had a lot of fun.

Uh, Sunday my sister and I went to see 'the king and I' and 'Miss Saigon'. I really liked both of them. Maybe I liked Saigon a bit more, but it was only because the King was harder to hear.

This weekend I basiclly did nothing, except on friday there was a speech party at Angie's house. It was bunches of fun, we played theatre games and just partied. I had a great time.

I know there are pleanty of spelling errors in this one. I don't want to spell check though, so bare with me. :)

Once again

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 05:36:48 GMT

I deleted my myspace. This time it is staying gone. I hate it and it takes too much time out of my life. Anyway, life is good and things are going pretty smooth, except for the new school situation, but comfort in that area takes time, so I don't really worry too much about it. My current resolution is to stop eating dairy, because it's bad for my body and bad for my sinuses. I want to finally be able to breath easy and accomplish something.

Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems.

fkldj

Shit

Bleh!

Oh great

Once again